today for the first time in the year, i took a peep at my PTS.. some shit scamming system that st gabs use.. i realise, i've been scoring so low for my tests and failing.. ONE OF MY GOALS WAS TO GET AN AVERAGE OF A2 FOR ALL MY TESTS.. NOW I TELL MYSELF HOW THE FUCK AM I GOING TO DO SO? i cant even deal with class tests, what am i going to take to challenge the O levels? im madly disappointed with myself. but good now i know that im studying the wrong way, study without understanding..

and my chinese class test also get so low.. and my all time no 1 in class for chinese position went to qi xian.. why did this happen? because sam is proud, he fuckin thinks that his chinese is so good hor? den slacken down.. well done now i know how crap i am.. the bloody mathes test so easy, i also can fail.. i really must put my head in the water for a few minutes.. all the goals and resolutions all set but none fulfilled. its march le.. days getting lesser and lesser.. and my dnt folio i let ppl see they will laugh sia.. people working on 2nd folio liao, i not even half of one done..

woah now look, i failed in so many areas now academics.. haa tourism? bullshit