lord, just what the hell is wrong with my parents? or is it me? i really give up talking to them reasonably and politely. i feel them so far away from me in communicating.. they have their own thinkings. they want me to do well in life, i myself want that too. who wants to be a useless man to waste the precious life you have given away? the talking between us just have no link.. at all. they expect me to ace every single test paper. they expect me to study 24/7. they assume that whoever that im talking over the phone or the net is a lady. they stop me from spending money when they dont give me much. they dont understand me and i dont understand them.

they asked me why cant you be like every other kid who makes their parents happy in academic areas. why must you play soccer and keep injuring yourself. why is it that other kids are scoring A and my son isnt, they feel that its just between laziness and hardworking. why cant i do better than your cousins and relatives and "gain some face for me".

i asked them why cant they try to blend into my life more. try understanding and putting more trust in your OWN son. why cant they be like carol's mom, justin's mom.. be like a friend to their own children.. not a fear.. why must my mom keep thinking negatively? she keeps saying that i'll fail in life, i wont be able to support her in future and she would be posted to an elderly home. just why do they have such low low faith in me..

i really cant take the communication breakdown. it is so broken down.. i have no ability to mend it. i want to give in to them, but they dont do the same to me. for example, i ask to stay over at a close friend's hse tmr becos he will be going back to australia soon and he will be away for a long time again. she says no, assumes that im going to skip school on wednesday WHEN I REALLY HAVE NO SCHOOL. i told her, she doesnt believe me and disallowed me to go.. lord, pls teach me how the handle the situation.. im at a loss now..