sorry readers, i had a very bad week and i dint had to mood to blog or do anything. many unhappy things happened. firstly my exams.. sadly and deservingly i only managed to pass 2 which are both EL and MT. i need to work extra hard to get back on track.. hahas but thats fine i'll pick myself up. heres one good news! me and a close friend had been "cold war" for a period but we're back as close friends again. thank god.. i admit its my fault, all because of my childishness. haha but i wont do it again, wont wanna lose such a friend again. heehees.

saw this "survey" at one friend's blog.

1. At what age do you wish to marry?
once i think im stable spiritually, financially and mentally.

2.What do you want the most now?
10pts for O levels.

3.Who is the person you trust the most?
god, carol toh

4.Do you think you have enough confidence?
precisely not.

5. If you had a dream that would come true, what would it be?
i want everyone to be happy, i mean every single one...

6. Are you satisfied with yourself?
yeah, except my wits.

7. What are you most afraid to lose now?
my loved ones.

8. Do you believe in eternity love?
absolute yes.

9. Have you broken someone's heart that he/she tried to commit suicide?
i wished i had.

10. What do you like most about yourself?
faithful to the one i love.

11. What are the requirements that you wish for the other half?
matured understanding smart fillial, and i've found her.

12.What feelings do you hate most?
depressed, emo , hot tempered.

13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
yeah, i have a wonderful clique.

14. Do you believe in god?
that is for sure. he is always here for me.

15. What do you think is that most important people in your life?
god, her ,my family and friends.

16. Who do you hope to be always there for you?
god, her.

17. What do you regret most in your life now?
fooling around during PSLE year and now in 5NA.

18. What kind of friend do you hope to be in your friend's eye?
one that people can confide in.

19. What are you doing currently?
thinking of her.

20. What do you like doing most?
see her dance.

thirdly, something real sick and unhappy happened. im so not prepared for this. though i appeared to be strong outside but im crying very badly inside me. every man has his darkness. and mine has arrived.. but im positive and will not be reckless.. i leave all my woes into God's hands and i have fully pledged faith in him that he will do wonders. i think this part only my close friend carol will understand.. sorry that i cannot divulge anything because it is not a graceful and pleasant thing. understand that im going thru my darkest period in my life, ppl pls pls pray for me and my family.. many thanks :] i also learn something.. BECAUSE OF MONEY, PEOPLE WILL DO WHATEVER IT TAKES TO EARN A FUCKING LIVING, TO THE EXTENT OF DESTROYING ONE'S HAPPINESS. i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you you have totally spoil ur positive and respected image of you in my mind.

i dunnoe what happened to you girl, i really hope its not me who brought unhappiness to you. you know something, im really at my lowest period of my life now.. and right now i got no one to turn to.. i only have GOD.. and besides him YOU. but you're not with me.. i absolute wish that you'll be by my side to go through this situation. i just want you as my pillar of support. because only you can be the one.. i will crank if this goes on, i cant take it alone.. all by myself.. my siblings are too "young" to take this with me.. know this, i need you badly.