i just cannot believe what i've heard and seen. there was a great man whom i've always looked upon as my hero, he did not smoke,drink,gamble and was a very responsible man.. to me he was a upright man and today because of this role model, i grew up under strict and positive influences and i did not follow the negative ones.. a boy at my age will naturally give in to negative peer pressure and the likes of the worldly habits. but now he has changed, by alot. i could recognise him no more. this man has become a heavy stock gambler, one who forsakes his family and actively involved in having extra marital affairs. not once, but many times and behind the very back of his wife and family. i asked myself this, will i forgive him? i said no, the respect and trust is lost. however, i decided to give him another chance because of my very young siblings. and today, again he is back to square one. the bible teaches me to forgive and forget and i've followed the word of God. but i wonder why is it that, the forgiven doesn't treasure the forgiveness? i cannot imagine the sudden change in my life, having grown up in a healthy and happy family.. compared to many others, God has shown me great favour. is sex really that important? is money really that important? does all this raise a supreme piority over a family which you have constructed over the years? when you decided to satisfy your own desires, did family love came into you thoughts? or did lust overcame you? at least i know i won't, because i love someone deeply, i won't bear to hurt her or do anything that will bring forth tremendous suffering to people around me. but you, my elder, my hero, my role model, a matured and grown up man, after being around for 40years, DO NOT EVEN HAVE THE ABILITY TO THINK WISELY. pressure and temptations.. those are resistable, would a deep cleavage be enough to do the magic? or did those sweet-honey words that blown you away? look, its recession now, everyone wants your money rich man. look at yourself, would anyone pour out their heart and soul to love you now? but its good you see, at least right now i've seen what kind of a 'hero' you really are and trust me i won't forgive you. you are such a disappointment you know that? i really hope you read this post, WAKE UP! 40 year old man. YOU HAVE A FAMILY, IF YOU REALLY WANT TO SLEEP AROUND.. MOVE YOUR ASS FAR FAR AWAY PLEASE, DON'T DESTROY OUR LIVES, AND TRUST ME I'LL BE STRONGER NOW AND I WON'T TEAR. SERIOUSLY, I DESPISE YOU! THOSE TIONG KOK PO WON'T CLING ON TO YOU WHEN YOU ARE PENNILESS AND EXPIRED, WISEN UP!! IF YOU STILL WANT TO SALVAGE YOUR FAMILY, STOP. 70 year old ah pei dont know how to think, i understand.. but you... you are hell stupid.